True Friend.
Sunday, 16 June 2013 // 20:03
Friends. People that we can't live without.
How do you define someone as your friend?
1. Someone who you know by name?
2. A company?
3. Someone you can rely on?
4. A shoulder for you to lean on when you are down?
5. Someone to hang out with?
And.. the list goes on.
We often categories friends in our very own ways. The most common being acquaintances, hi-bye friends, friends, close friends and BFFs.
Acquaintances are usually people who you know for barely a day or less. Mostly by the name rather than his/her character. Based on first impression mostly. Hi-bye friends are usually people you will know and have interaction with at a point of time but not in daily life anymore. Sometimes, conversation may get a little longer than just a "hi" and "bye", but they are usually friends you rarely keep in contact with. Usually, it's up to "fate" to decide if you will ever see this person again. Friends, people you get acquainted with for a longer period of time than usual and get comfortable with. Close friends are usually friends you will bother to keep in contact or hang out with most of the time outside your obligations (eg. work or school). These are the people you will bother to show an extra concern and make extra effort to keep them close to your heart in a way or another; people you hold closer to your heart other than your family, hoping that some of them are worth to be "moved" to the next category, BFFs.
Acquaintances are usually people who you know for barely a day or less. Mostly by the name rather than his/her character. Based on first impression mostly. Hi-bye friends are usually people you will know and have interaction with at a point of time but not in daily life anymore. Sometimes, conversation may get a little longer than just a "hi" and "bye", but they are usually friends you rarely keep in contact with. Usually, it's up to "fate" to decide if you will ever see this person again. Friends, people you get acquainted with for a longer period of time than usual and get comfortable with. Close friends are usually friends you will bother to keep in contact or hang out with most of the time outside your obligations (eg. work or school). These are the people you will bother to show an extra concern and make extra effort to keep them close to your heart in a way or another; people you hold closer to your heart other than your family, hoping that some of them are worth to be "moved" to the next category, BFFs.
Personally, I don't believe in BFFs. So even my closest friends I don't consider them in this category. Why? I guess some people around me just made me lost the faith in this. Although I am someone who sees friendship above all and truly cherish all my closest friends out there, there was never a time in my life I stop thinking that people will come and will leave eventually. The questions usually lies on when and how. I see the fragility of friendship with my own eyes and has my own personal touch on this too. The rate of how fast some people can lost that concern for you differs and this is one of the reasons, at least for me, we ended up categorizing friends. The longer the care and concern last, this is when it usually ends up to be what some people say: a true friend.
I guess everyone out there hopes to find that "true friend" who you can really be yourself and rant almost everything and anything to. Someone, who can makes you feel like "Wow, finally somebody in this world really understanding my perception in life." or "Wow! Finally I got someone there for me no matter what happens." . We all wish to find someone like this to rely on. We just want to be understood even if our perception does not matter to the world.
Not long ago, I thought I found someone like this. I really thought I did. Someone who I can tell almost everything and anything at any point of time, someone who can really hear me out and will be there for me at any point of time, even it's just over text. Nevertheless, things changed so tremendously and unexpectedly. I lost it. I lost the faith in this friendship in that split second. Maybe it was just the insecurities that set in which puts me in a situation that I just could not trust that particular person as I used to anymore. It just seems that the changes become barriers between us and we could not get over them anymore. I don't know how to handle this situation. I used to thought this friend of mine is the one who prove me right. Till the day we talked it out, I realized maybe the problems lies in me. Maybe, I am the one who let this once precious friendship slide.
Maybe, I just trust too much.
Maybe, I was too blinded by our similarities.
Maybe, I was too blinded by our similarities.
Maybe, I was to buy into the fact that we could click well like nobody it.
Just, maybe...
I guess, things just not gonna be the same anymore. Not until I can have the faith I used to have in this friendship. Can anyone just enlighten me somehow or somewhat? Before I really lost the faith in "true friends". Before I lost the hope of having a friend I can hold really close to.
Till then.
Till then.
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